Thanks for ur comments for “madness of life “!!!

I am very gr8ful for your comments, as it encourages me to share nice post with you all friends. I feel that this post” madness of life ,,,”is very much we all do in some or other manner in our life. B’coz we hardly talk to our within and we want result, that too good result, but we forget there is process, a script written by a somebody above.

Lines in” madness of life...” is not written by me, but these lines came in my life when I really needed it most. When I was seeing failures in personally and in my studies. it was time when I felt that I am good for nothing and nothing wld be good for me. I felt god is not kind to me. I use to interact in my puja room with god, use to blame for every other thing he took away form me. I lost faith in him (god) and in “myself”. I had felling no matter what effort I put, I wld be divided with zero by god. I was looking at infinity with no other answers.
As I said above he wrote a script for me, a script which I wld say made tremendous change in my life. It changed my view towards life… (?) ……this is what happens….


!! One day a family friend visited to our house, it was after 8 years we meet them. It was period I hardly come out of my room, when I am in house. I used to interact less, as I don’t want to answer their questions regarding my career and job. I can hear voice of my guest and my mom interacting. I was not even bothered to say a hi to them. Rude isn’t?.........suddenly I felt uneasy feeling, I don’t know what I felt I have to drink water. I thought twice…..” shld I go”,as I need to see their staring eyes at me. I decided, I have to. My throat was feeling uneasy.

Aunty (guest) was first to say hi!!..she had gr8 smile on her face. As when she saw me before 8 yrs I was small kid wearing half trousers moving around. I liked the response, I felt nice, and suddenly my eyes went to a kid of 11 years. He was sitting their silently moving his hand some here and there. She asked me to sit, she was asking abt my college and future plans. But when I was answering her que, I felt some suspicious abt the kid. My smile suddenly went away,he was mentally challenged kid.oh god!!! I don’t like that word….I wld say mentally unable kid. This was first time I was interacting to a person like this. I was not knwing, I was clueless….hmmmm…….as I even don’t interact with small kids…I was finding difficult.” what shld I ask him?” …all those que where in my mind…………I went in to my room, I was sad. I just on my computer I was thinking abt him.

Aunty is about to leave, my mom asked will she come in puja in temple. She calmly said “I better pray in home, as it hardly matters .as I had always prayed for nice intelligent kid,”…then she was silent…..and she said” god hears my prayers frm my home itself”. She tried to smile…….but I can find she was not blaming in any matter to god, but compromised with things and even more happy to love her only child, as she finds him most smart and able kid in earth as every other mom.

As she left I came in to my room, my eyes where moist…..I open a folder saw these lines in ppt, I read it before but never looked at it.” madness of life ..”For me now came as blessing and made me know what madness I was doing playing blame game. I cried …usually don’t…but can’t resist ……..!!

As I mentioned in first Para...” I lost faith in him(god) and in myself “,actually I lost faith in my self …that I can come up again ,,,,,that I can gain all those things I lost…..and I have to be optimistic ,for those things which was making me negative. god was always within me ,but I was unable to hear his voice…..he made me realize ,whatever he gave me best I can get,,,, ,he made me to compare with kid,,,, which made me think god has given me beautiful life and its unfair to ask for more……..now I feel I am luckiest ,happiest and optimistic.but also pray that some miracle happn and kid becomes allright,,,,,,,,which will bring lot to his mom.as frm now I even belive in miracles…hey god I hope u listening……”hello friend ,plzz yaar “.

I hope, u did understand what i meant….as my English is poor. If any mistake in language, sorry guys…waiting for ur comments….I want to know my mistakes….